lost

Why do i feel so lost? amidst all the people in my life, the work i have, the extra curricular activities i take-- i am still lost. The bible says, God will help us find our way only if we let him. Let him? How? i pray. i ask for his forgiveness, for his guidance and for him to take charge of my life. i have done those things yet... i am still at a loss.

Maybe i am clueless. Maybe i am just making excuses for my laziness and for the wrong choices i made knowing that they were wrong. I am hopelessly unsure of my self and the worse thing is i let myself believe i have the right to be mad at unsuspecting people who make my mistakes stand out more than i would have wanted it to. i know i was wrong. but i just don't know how to go about the change that i want.. how?....

*big sigh*

Our Gauge

I've felt love leave me confused and bitter.. How do we gauge real love and right love then?

Maybe we see extraordinary actions and sweetness... Maybe we hear the sweetest words... maybe? Maybe not.

In the end the only honest way we could gauge real love is when we find no other reason to doubt-- not just his heart, but also our own hearts. When we learn to let go of the past and trust that the future in front of us is what's meant for us.

Your heart will define when. You'll decide who.

new day...

its a new day to build our life.. to sing and dance... to have but a moment of silence.. to relax and find heaven amidst all this craziness...

i hope i could paint soon...